My current Mantra
Before I know it, I'm going to have two toddlers, and I. AM. NOT. READY. (Do I technically already have two toddlers now that my baby is one? I'm in denial.)
I am not ready for the chaos. I am not ready for the messes. I am not ready to discipline two children. I am not ready or strong enough to wrestle two toddler arounds.
But more than the chaos that is inevitably coming, I'm not ready for the loss of babyhood. For the baby rolls to thin out, for the hair to grow in, for the snuggles to come less and less frequently. I'm not ready for the skin to toughen up, or the baby scent to leave, or the sweet open mouth kisses to stop coming. I'm not ready to stop breastfeeding. I'm not ready to start wanting another baby because my baby is big now. I'm not ready to stop being wanted and adored every second by a little person who only knows how to love. Okay, yes, and cry. Love and cry.
Time. How do I stop it?
The only solution I can think of is to be really present with my babies. To talk to them, read to them, cuddle, play with them, and bask in their smiles. To enjoy my baby as a baby and my toddler as a toddler. I can't stop time, but I can enjoy it. I can enjoy my kids.
Enjoy my kids. That's been the phrase that's been on my mind the past few months, especially as I feel my patience wear thin. It's been kind of like a magic word for me, because it seems like whenever I think this, I mean really think this, and try to do it, I feel more patient. Whatever was stressing me out seems less important when I remember this. I feel literal delight in my children. I, well, enjoy my kids.
What's your current mantra? I'd love to hear because I'm not above having two (or three).